Hello guys, is it bad that I am still alive, probably is.

Is there a work environment, where it's only guys, I need to go there to work. History is repeating, and I have yet to learn my lesson from it. And you guessed it, it is regarding a female colleague. As I interact with her more, the deeper I fall, someone please help me.

It's a mindless flow of motion, whenever I interact with her, I will totally forget about the past and repeat my stupid actions again. After some time, I will remember about the past actions and stop myself before I fall deeper. But it seems to be futile, I want to give her my attention.

I thought that my training plan will allow me to flush all these useless and stupid thoughts out, but I was wrong. I keep thinking of her again and again. Is it possible to remove this kind of attraction, this kind of stupid feelings.

Sorry for the terrible English, gonna go back to work, good bye