And I will keep walking till the day I die.
Thursday, 17 May 2012
Hello everyone, trying to go back to blogging
Really need something or someone to listen to my bullshit

Was giving myself a chance and thinking about it

If i succeed, i will have something to hold back
Hence, i will not go all in during my NS to be a diver

If i fail, i will have nothing to hold back
And i will go all out for my NS, even if my life is at stake

Was thinking
Since my life is pretty screwed, and i'm not very good with people
Even after my NS i might be doing a 2k job per month
But with Singapore's inflation, 2k is probably enough
Enough to pay for your food and medical fees

And by doing some calculation
You will probably earn 1 million in your whole life
What can you do with 1 million in your whole life ?
Probably nothing, just work your ass off daily
And try to make ends meet

Therefore, if i'm able to succeed in NS
I will probably sign on
Sign till i die

But for now, i still have 4 more months before going in
Really wish they could bring forward the enlistment date
Rather then me thinking about how life sucks
4 months ...
Working in a manufacturing company
Where they make steels and etc

Hostile enviroment
Busy place
Tough work
But yea, it's ok for me, sometimes busy is an advantage
It keeps my mind off you
I have to concentrate during work, or i will get injured
Although there are many moments i was thinking of you
and

BAM !!
1 cut on my arms
Abit of bleeding, and back to work
Really missing you ever since
But i probably know it would be impossible for us again
All my own wishful thinking

Alright, it's 5am now and i have to work at 9am.
Probably try to get some sleep
Can't afford to doze off during work and who knows
My fingers might be gone
Just kidding, they have safety gloves
But injury is inevitable.

Current mindset: "Fk it, do only, even if it will cost my life"

Goodnight readers, or maybe there won't even be anyone reading.