And I will keep walking till the day I die.
Sunday, 9 September 2018
Hello guys, not sure if anyone is reading, should be no as the view count shows 0, but here goes.
Woke up today from a weird dream, it's like a World War Z or Train to Busan kind, but it didn't start right out in a zombie apocalypse, here we go.
I applied for Masters, I believe, in some prestige school, or it was an important course that will probably help the place I am in, in the future. During the application, I chance upon these sections called, actually, I can't remembered what it is called, but lets call it, For Future Leaders, and another one called, CCA.
I am not sure why, but I applied both, for the leaders thingy, there was a clause that states only 20 applicants will be chosen, and miraculously, I got in, no interview, nothing, and for CCA wise, I was doing bowling. My mum asked why did I apply for the leaders thing, and I simply replied, "I didn't know I will get in, so many applicants, only 20 will be chosen, and yet I got it." Next thing I knew, we were all in the auditorium hall, watching the new students orientation ceremony or something. We were watching ourselves in a video, playing bowling.
Next up was the arrival of VIP, ministers and stuff, hence that's why I said I might have applied for some important course or was in a prestige school. We were chosen at random, to escort the VIP from the lobby, to their seats. Forgot to add, there were soldiers everywhere, security I guess.
This is where the apocalypse happened, suddenly, zombies started bursting through the doors, like hordes of them. Somehow, the soldiers were prepared for it, I think. They immediately started throwing this bags of ... sand ? dust ? I can't remember much, I believe it sort of covered our tracks/smell, to redirect the zombies to go somewhere else, while we all frantically trying to escape in all directions.
I ran and ran, found a room, and locked myself in. There were 2 doors, 1 of it, had a partially faulty locking mechanism. As more people were running towards the direction of where I was hiding, I started to hear people screaming to let them in, I hesitated. Should I, risk myself and open the door, or be selfish and let them die. This is the part where it's confusing, I seem to have no control of what I am doing, or what decision to make. However, I decided to open up, and this is where it all went down.
The people were at the door with the faulty locking mechanism, hence, it took quite awhile before I was able to unlock it. Everyone got in safely afterwards, and I asked around, if anyone injured. A policewoman raised her hand, and we all saw, there was a bite there. I panicked a little, and warn her she will become one of them, to which she replied calmly, that she will control herself, which I have no idea how.
After the zombies cleared, not exactly over, but the streets outside seem safe, and people were moving out, in their vehicles. I started to extract the glass panels out from the windows, if you're wondering how the hell did I do that, if any of you remember how primary school windows look, those that you have a lever on the side, where you control the glass panels up and down, yea, those kind. After I have extracted enough, I climbed out and all of a sudden, the infected policewoman walked straight up to me, and said, "Do you know I am pregnant ?" I have no idea why she said that, but I continued to make my way down to the streets.
Next thing I knew, was the infected policewoman, becoming a zombie and charging right at me, when did she even got down, I then grabbed a bamboo stick, and pierce it right through her head. When I thought it was over, another infected lady walked right up and kept asking me questions, like in a daze. She was like half zombie, half human, asking questions and trying to chew whatever that is in front of her. I took the bamboo stick from earlier, and kept whacking her head, over and over again, but this zombie/human, seems unbreakable. I took a few steps back and I realize, the zombie policewoman from earlier, was gone, meaning she didn't die, and before anything could happen, I woke up.
That's it fellas, not sure if any of those were interesting, but I felt like I didn't sleep at all, so tired, as usual.
Friday, 7 September 2018
Hello everyone,
Can't believe my blog is still alive and ki.... Maybe not kicking anymore, but it's still there, remembered it was created a long while ago with my friend's help to do up the html and design.
How is everyone lately, is anyone else experiencing the "quarter" life crisis ?
I think I am having one, or, experiencing some of it, I feel like it's happening on me, I am quite sick of my life, what am I working for, everyday is just a dread that is happening over and over again, I just want to sleep, as somehow, I am always tired.
For now, I want to use this as a form of online dairy, like security through obscurity, hopefully no one that I know has the knowledge of this blog.
Life is very mundane ever since I have started work, I always thought it was because I got rejected by a lady and was in the phase of sadness by rejection. It has been a year now, but why do I still feel like this, all I do is work, sleep, work, sleep, work sleep, repeat. I am trying to "spice" things up in life, currently attempting to train for a marathon, forcing myself to go for a run no matter how tired or late I get back from work. I'm gaining weight too, which is a bad thing, pants are tearing, shirts are bulging, what a horrendous sight.
Is love out there for everyone ? I certainly think it isn't for me, or hopefully there isn't for me, I don't want to go through those roller coaster of feelings in 2017 again, I'm tired ...
It's great to see family and friends getting married, planning for their future, move on to different phases of life, and it's such an envy to see people in love, and before you say I should go out there to find one, I think I am done. I doubt there will be any of it out there, even if there is, I shall not pursue.
The word love, has brought me joy, some form of anxiety, sadness, jealousy, and many other feelings.
But so far, every single time, ok la, 2 times only, I always wished I had not made a move, at least I can live in denial I had a chance, even till now, there are single ladies out there and I shun them, getting away quickly before any stupid thoughts and feelings developed.
How I wish I can fast forward my life, to the day where I retire, with enough money to live till I die, and just sip kopi in the morning with some good pals, and talk about what we have been through, and laugh at the stupid things we have done.
Just to let you all know, I remembered all the times I have been through with my friends, from the primary school days, till polytechnic, and even now, the working days.
See ya everyone.
I am gonna go sleep now, see you all again, hopefully ...
