Thursday 25 October 2018
Hello guys, is it bad that I am still alive, probably is.
Is there a work environment, where it's only guys, I need to go there to work. History is repeating, and I have yet to learn my lesson from it. And you guessed it, it is regarding a female colleague. As I interact with her more, the deeper I fall, someone please help me.
It's a mindless flow of motion, whenever I interact with her, I will totally forget about the past and repeat my stupid actions again. After some time, I will remember about the past actions and stop myself before I fall deeper. But it seems to be futile, I want to give her my attention.
I thought that my training plan will allow me to flush all these useless and stupid thoughts out, but I was wrong. I keep thinking of her again and again. Is it possible to remove this kind of attraction, this kind of stupid feelings.
Sorry for the terrible English, gonna go back to work, good bye
Wednesday 3 October 2018
Hello all, it's almost 1.30am now and I am about to sleep soon.
I'm not sure why, but I got pretty moody today, is it because of her, of all the imagination that I can have happiness with her, that will eventually lead to nothing but despair once I wake up. Guessing it is.
I thought I was over the quarter life crisis, but it feels like it's lingering somewhere, and I had the whole night to re-experience it again. Why is life so meaningless ?
Sometimes, I yearn to see her, but luckily, I am still capable of constantly reminding myself, that people like me, do not deserve happiness, I should rot and die alone, without bothering others.
I have been thinking about planning my own funeral, pay the fees, get everything ready, so I wouldn't be a hassle, even after life.
"If you can choose to be taller or prettier, which will you choose, pick wisely."
Of course, get the height, you're pretty already, to me at least.
Good night.
Sunday 9 September 2018 Hello guys, not sure if anyone is reading, should be no as the view count shows 0, but here goes.
Woke up today from a weird dream, it's like a World War Z or Train to Busan kind, but it didn't start right out in a zombie apocalypse, here we go.
I applied for Masters, I believe, in some prestige school, or it was an important course that will probably help the place I am in, in the future. During the application, I chance upon these sections called, actually, I can't remembered what it is called, but lets call it, For Future Leaders, and another one called, CCA.
I am not sure why, but I applied both, for the leaders thingy, there was a clause that states only 20 applicants will be chosen, and miraculously, I got in, no interview, nothing, and for CCA wise, I was doing bowling. My mum asked why did I apply for the leaders thing, and I simply replied, "I didn't know I will get in, so many applicants, only 20 will be chosen, and yet I got it." Next thing I knew, we were all in the auditorium hall, watching the new students orientation ceremony or something. We were watching ourselves in a video, playing bowling.
Next up was the arrival of VIP, ministers and stuff, hence that's why I said I might have applied for some important course or was in a prestige school. We were chosen at random, to escort the VIP from the lobby, to their seats. Forgot to add, there were soldiers everywhere, security I guess.
This is where the apocalypse happened, suddenly, zombies started bursting through the doors, like hordes of them. Somehow, the soldiers were prepared for it, I think. They immediately started throwing this bags of ... sand ? dust ? I can't remember much, I believe it sort of covered our tracks/smell, to redirect the zombies to go somewhere else, while we all frantically trying to escape in all directions.
I ran and ran, found a room, and locked myself in. There were 2 doors, 1 of it, had a partially faulty locking mechanism. As more people were running towards the direction of where I was hiding, I started to hear people screaming to let them in, I hesitated. Should I, risk myself and open the door, or be selfish and let them die. This is the part where it's confusing, I seem to have no control of what I am doing, or what decision to make. However, I decided to open up, and this is where it all went down.
The people were at the door with the faulty locking mechanism, hence, it took quite awhile before I was able to unlock it. Everyone got in safely afterwards, and I asked around, if anyone injured. A policewoman raised her hand, and we all saw, there was a bite there. I panicked a little, and warn her she will become one of them, to which she replied calmly, that she will control herself, which I have no idea how.
After the zombies cleared, not exactly over, but the streets outside seem safe, and people were moving out, in their vehicles. I started to extract the glass panels out from the windows, if you're wondering how the hell did I do that, if any of you remember how primary school windows look, those that you have a lever on the side, where you control the glass panels up and down, yea, those kind. After I have extracted enough, I climbed out and all of a sudden, the infected policewoman walked straight up to me, and said, "Do you know I am pregnant ?" I have no idea why she said that, but I continued to make my way down to the streets.
Next thing I knew, was the infected policewoman, becoming a zombie and charging right at me, when did she even got down, I then grabbed a bamboo stick, and pierce it right through her head. When I thought it was over, another infected lady walked right up and kept asking me questions, like in a daze. She was like half zombie, half human, asking questions and trying to chew whatever that is in front of her. I took the bamboo stick from earlier, and kept whacking her head, over and over again, but this zombie/human, seems unbreakable. I took a few steps back and I realize, the zombie policewoman from earlier, was gone, meaning she didn't die, and before anything could happen, I woke up.
That's it fellas, not sure if any of those were interesting, but I felt like I didn't sleep at all, so tired, as usual.
Friday 7 September 2018 Hello everyone,
Can't believe my blog is still alive and ki.... Maybe not kicking anymore, but it's still there, remembered it was created a long while ago with my friend's help to do up the html and design.
How is everyone lately, is anyone else experiencing the "quarter" life crisis ?
I think I am having one, or, experiencing some of it, I feel like it's happening on me, I am quite sick of my life, what am I working for, everyday is just a dread that is happening over and over again, I just want to sleep, as somehow, I am always tired.
For now, I want to use this as a form of online dairy, like security through obscurity, hopefully no one that I know has the knowledge of this blog.
Life is very mundane ever since I have started work, I always thought it was because I got rejected by a lady and was in the phase of sadness by rejection. It has been a year now, but why do I still feel like this, all I do is work, sleep, work, sleep, work sleep, repeat. I am trying to "spice" things up in life, currently attempting to train for a marathon, forcing myself to go for a run no matter how tired or late I get back from work. I'm gaining weight too, which is a bad thing, pants are tearing, shirts are bulging, what a horrendous sight.
Is love out there for everyone ? I certainly think it isn't for me, or hopefully there isn't for me, I don't want to go through those roller coaster of feelings in 2017 again, I'm tired ...
It's great to see family and friends getting married, planning for their future, move on to different phases of life, and it's such an envy to see people in love, and before you say I should go out there to find one, I think I am done. I doubt there will be any of it out there, even if there is, I shall not pursue.
The word love, has brought me joy, some form of anxiety, sadness, jealousy, and many other feelings.
But so far, every single time, ok la, 2 times only, I always wished I had not made a move, at least I can live in denial I had a chance, even till now, there are single ladies out there and I shun them, getting away quickly before any stupid thoughts and feelings developed.
How I wish I can fast forward my life, to the day where I retire, with enough money to live till I die, and just sip kopi in the morning with some good pals, and talk about what we have been through, and laugh at the stupid things we have done.
Just to let you all know, I remembered all the times I have been through with my friends, from the primary school days, till polytechnic, and even now, the working days.
See ya everyone.
I am gonna go sleep now, see you all again, hopefully ...
Tuesday 14 August 2012 21 more days to ns, the naval diving unit
A unit that almost any ns men hear and they will say
"Wah, damn xiong leh"
And i will tell myself
Why not ?
Tekong or direct unit enlistment, does it matter ?
Ha, maybe i will just die in the NDU
Who knows
- Equipment failure
- Too weak
Whatever it is, I think i'm prepared
Might even write a letter just in case i don't make it out alive
You know, I have never really thought of what i want to do
What I want to do in future
All the sayings, are just like a plan that I probably won't execute
Somehow, signing on seems pretty good to me
But that is unless I can even make it in and out of OCS
I don't know man
Maybe i wouldn't even want to stay in the NDU
But who knows, so let's just go in
And experience what BMT is about
"Act blur live longer"
"Act stupid lagi better"
Quotes and advice from my current friends in the army
Hope they are all doing well
You know, till now, i still think about her all the time
I even bought a handbag, wanting to give it to her on her birthday
But that is still way too long
Not even sure if i will ever have the chance to even do that
Let's just hope things will work out
Thinking back, when the answer was a "no"
It felt like the world ended, till I receive my enlistment letter
To the Naval Diving Unit
Somehow, after seeing that letter
Most people will be like "nooooooooooooooooo"
But for me, i said "yes, finally the letter is here"
Somehow, i look forward to going into the NDU
You guys might think i'm stupid
Maybe i am, but i'm saying all these before my enlistment
So let's just stay that way for now
Maybe after my confinement i will be posting on how sucky it is
I have always wanted to make my parents feel proud for me
I don't know when will I have the chance
But i think probably now, in the army
And I miss the time, when you go through shit with your mates
Like how i went through the "hell night" with my bros
21 days left, i will have to make everyday count
There are many things i want to do
But probably won't have the time, or energy to do so
Alright, signing off
Bye peoples
Monday 21 May 2012 Hello peoples
It's Monday again
It will also be her last day at expo
Guess i won't be having the chance to see her again
Spend about an hour editing photos
Trying to be as precise as i can
Printed out the photos
But end up it wasn't as sharp as the ones of the poloroid
Looks like i have to find someone who has a laser printer
Or maybe go back to NYP print the photos
The are photos of her
I want to change my wallet poloroid photo to her
So when i go in for NS, i would at least still have a picture of her
Damn, it's so torturing to love someone
But can't do anything but just watch
Was watching a drama and i saw this line
"Find out who he is, and crush him"
Ha, but would that be easy ?
Or would that be appropriate ?
Like some loser doing whatever it takes
Or maybe that's why love is selfish
But man
Only 4 months left
Probably should just keep working
And get busy so she can be off my mind
But everytime there's a break
Somehow i will just stare into the space and think of her
Wishing everyday i could be together with her
Wish she was reading this
Or maybe not, either way it will suck
I love you, goodnight
Saturday 19 May 2012 "Most of us experience the pangs of unreturned affection at some point in our lives. But for some folk, unrequited love becomes obsessive; they come to feel that they can become complete and fulfilled only through union with the object of their longings."
Got this message from Jovin
Guess it's right
But i don't think it will ever be completed and fulfiilled
There's only hope, but it seems to be vanishing
Now, i can just hope she and her bf will be doing well
I'm getting tired
Getting more tired everyday
My appetite is losing, bit by bit
Now i can't even finish any meals properly
Is it because of her ? Or my work environment
Friends are already noticing something is wrong
But i don't know what's wrong
Or i choose to live with it
"Don't give up the forest for a tree"
"Learn to let go"
"Move on"
I'm trying, or maybe not
8 years of you in my mind
Will it be that easy ?
I guess not, but still, there's nothing I can do
"Liking someone is tough"
"In a relationship is also tough"
One of my friends told me these today
But i only see all the love and fun when they go out
Tried doing exercise, went for a long run
But still didn't make any difference
Other then making my calf scream when i take a step
Went to nap awhile and had my dinner
I couldn't finish, not even half of it
And i have no appetite
I won't be letting go i guess
I will just wait, wait and wait
Even if the wait is meaningless and pointless
Somehow the waiting just gives me that glimpse of hope
I don't even dare to contact you
Fearing i maybe an annoyance to you
All the SMS i got is rejection
Be it a friendly outing or a date
Soon, soon it will be time for my enlistment
Can i take a photo of you and bring it into my camp ?
Whenever i see your smiling face
It just makes me happy for the rest of the day
Alright, i will end here
Treating this blog as a dairy
Blabbering all my heartfelt words
Goodnight everyone
Will always love you
Friday 18 May 2012 Hello guys,
Writing a dairy again.
Today's work was tiring, didn't know spraying paint was such a tough job
The tough part is not the spraying
Is the part whereby the thinner get backs at you
Will "high" and get all dirty
Was having jelly legs after the job
All was good, after work, went to expo
To chit chat with pals
Didn't expect to see her there again.
So much thoughts in my mind that i want to share with her
But i guess she made it clear it was a NO
How i wish it would be easy to let go
But is it possible ? To let go someone you love since primary 6 ?
I don't think it will be easy, but i will try
Since i have 2 years in army
But 8 years of holding on, will need someone to guide me out
Or can i just enter your friendzoned ?
Most guys will think that's stupid, but i'm happy even to be just a friend
To be there to help you with whatever i can
To be there to share your thoughts
Have been frantically trying to find the old photos
The photos of once we were together
The few months of relationship was the happiest moment of my life
But i guess it will be in the past
Somehow, i do hope i can spend the rest of my life with you
Its an imaginary relationship that is so perfect
Because i only think of the happy stuff we can do
Alright, i'm going off, still have work tomorrow
Hope i will get busy and temporary forget about you
Mindset: "Fk it, do only, even if it will cost my life"
Thursday 17 May 2012 Hello everyone, trying to go back to blogging
Really need something or someone to listen to my bullshit
Was giving myself a chance and thinking about it
If i succeed, i will have something to hold back
Hence, i will not go all in during my NS to be a diver
If i fail, i will have nothing to hold back
And i will go all out for my NS, even if my life is at stake
Was thinking
Since my life is pretty screwed, and i'm not very good with people
Even after my NS i might be doing a 2k job per month
But with Singapore's inflation, 2k is probably enough
Enough to pay for your food and medical fees
And by doing some calculation
You will probably earn 1 million in your whole life
What can you do with 1 million in your whole life ?
Probably nothing, just work your ass off daily
And try to make ends meet
Therefore, if i'm able to succeed in NS
I will probably sign on
Sign till i die
But for now, i still have 4 more months before going in
Really wish they could bring forward the enlistment date
Rather then me thinking about how life sucks
4 months ...
Working in a manufacturing company
Where they make steels and etc
Hostile enviroment
Busy place
Tough work
But yea, it's ok for me, sometimes busy is an advantage
It keeps my mind off you
I have to concentrate during work, or i will get injured
Although there are many moments i was thinking of you
and
BAM !!
1 cut on my arms
Abit of bleeding, and back to work
Really missing you ever since
But i probably know it would be impossible for us again
All my own wishful thinking
Alright, it's 5am now and i have to work at 9am.
Probably try to get some sleep
Can't afford to doze off during work and who knows
My fingers might be gone
Just kidding, they have safety gloves
But injury is inevitable.
Current mindset: "Fk it, do only, even if it will cost my life"
Goodnight readers, or maybe there won't even be anyone reading.
Thursday 31 December 2009 Hello Readers, 2010 is coming in about 2 hours time
Then i just thought
What will my future be like ?
So i starting thinking about starting a family
But on a second thought
With my face, i don't think i can a wife
So forget about family
I might sign on SAF
And just live with what i have
The pay from army, is enough to support me and my parents
Lets just say my brother gets married and moved out
Maintenance fee and whatever fee
I might still have some money
And I can buy things i like
Like the m17 alienware laptop
Imba specs and performance
OK, maybe i thought too far
Back to reality
Started playing some maple
Tried out aran and got bought in an hour
And i have nothing to do
I do have school's stuff to do
But just lazy to start
Looking forward to Sock Teng's birthday
I shall end here
And good luck in 2010
All the best to everyone
Tuesday 15 December 2009 Hi, long time no update, practically have nothing to update
However, i do have something to update now
And that's why I'm here
This is the hotel we stayed at, called B suite, wasn't that bad
And a few more pictures around and inside the hotel
After waiting for damn long, we proceeded into checking in our rooms
And i took a few photos of ours, and my room mate was louis
From the 14th floor !!!
Our beds
And a random picture of NobleI think the arms at the left side is either cheng wee or shun fa
Ok, the 2 days of competition, just went around taking picturesAs i didn't have any race sets for some moments
And i was resting
So end of race days
And time for PARTY
Ok, not really party, just enjoy ourselves awhile for the last day
Rape #1
Rape #2So we pretty much enjoy ourselves
And the next day we packed up and went home
Took a few more pictures
And the next day we packed up and went home
Took a few more pictures
Ok, thats all i have, was sleeping on the coach all the way
Was comfortable man
Time to sleep, goodnight peoples
Sunday 1 November 2009 It has been sometime since i see them again
Had great fun too
But, Halloween was a fail, LOL
Why ? Cause nothing scared me at all
The haunted house was damn funny
Too bad we couldn't interact with the props
Or we might even play with it
Here are some pics of the day
Most of the pictures don't have me
As i was the cameraman
Sentence of the day: "Wtf, my hair, wtf, wtf, wtf !!!"
Monday 12 October 2009 Hello peoples, long time i didn't update
Was pretty lazy to update
And also busy training for competition
Race was on 10th and 11th of October
At Bedok Resevoir
Result was pretty bad for us
So not gonna say much about it
Lets just say seniors won something
And we are all happy about it
So now, all i can do is to train harder
For the next competition
Gonna try not to miss out any trainings
I'm gonna need all those to make me better
For the next race, gonna try not to disappoint coach
And get what he aimed for us to archieve
Lets hope it will all be better
Oh yea, got some pics to upload, so it won't be a boring post
My paddle and vest !!!
Enjoy =D
Tuesday 1 September 2009 Hi peoples
Yes, i'm back, exams are over manzzz
Ok, now 3 main things to do
Outing, BBQing, CCAing
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Ok, about the outing
I figured out that many ideas have been done before
Therefore, i think this time round
Something new should be injected into this outing
Therefore, maybe going to ubin might be a good idea
Maybe like trekking at ubin ?
But its going to be tough for some
Or what about a bicycle ride there instead ?
It will be much easier and more fun
So, the plan will be, PLAN ONLY, NOT CONFIRM
Venue: Ubin
Price: $4 (including going and back from ubin)
Additional $2.50 if you want to bring your own bike
Time: Meeting at 11am
Date: Not confirmed, somewhere around october weekends ?
There are many things needed to be brought
Like waterbottles, and first aid kit
Recommneded to bring more money
To purchase drinks there
As it will be more expensive there
And also after the cycling
Go back to changi village to eat ?
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Now for class BBQ
Quite hard to plan this
But for sure is the area will be at East Coast
The food and stuff i'm not very sure what to do
As this is my first time hosting a bbq alone
Normally girls are better in food stuff, so ya
A date shall be picked after some discussion
So this is the plan, PLAN ONLY, NOT CONFIRMED
Venue: East Coast Park
Food: Chicken Wings ?
Otah ?
Fish Balls ?
Crab Meat ? ( Not the real one)
Satay ?
Hot Dog ?
Marshmellow ?
Bee Hoon ?
Nodals ? (Noodles)
Mesh analysis ? (Mesh Potato)(Not possible)
Price: Lets say about $10 ~$20 per person
Date: Not confirmed
So yea, its about like that, more updates will be coming up after discussions
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Oh right, CCA, have been skipping CCAs
Due to exams of course
But will be back in action from today
As exams are over, as i've said on the start
Time to relax a little
But future modules will be tougher
And that will suck alot
How I wish i can just take a long break
But looks like that will be my future days
When i'm a retired
Slacking at home everyday
Playing the piano
Eating my favourite food
How nice would that be
Yea yea, that will only happen in heaven
Where everything is free ?
Tuesday 11 August 2009 Hi peoples,
Thought of hosting a gathering
So far, have told a few people
Kang, Zahran, Gwen, Angela, Ding run and Liqi
Told Koon, but they were away and didn't reply
Wanted to tell the rest but they weren't online
Ok, so i'll say it here
So far have about a few ideas ?
Bicycle ride a ubin
Gathering at someone house
A chalet
Roller Blading
And a few more, can't remember
Sorry
Wanted to plan it on september
As most will be having holidays
However, we need to consider for our dear JC student
Ding run, he will be having promotion test
And he will need all the time he got
Soooooo, is it possible for the gathering to be after
Er ... October ?
So ya, thats all i have for now
Will be updating once i have ask the rest
Edited:
Asked lauwu, he's still not sure yet
Most probably he can make it i guess =D
Asked Ben and he's ok with it, nice ~~
Asked Gary and he said should be can =D
Asked Weixi and he said should be can bah
Means most probably can i think =D
Asked Koon Zhe and he suggested a new idea =D
Asked Kaili and she's still not sure yet
Hope can make it =D
Asked Sock Teng and she's still not sure as well
Fow now, wait till exams are over
Then i'll resume planning
Monday 3 August 2009 Man, this not working, that not working
Kns, hate circuit boards and projects
Wire wrapping suck big time
Troubleshoot for 2 days
And its still full of problems, redo a few
Aiya, hack, tomorrow then go ask kokfk
But i don't think will have any result
And and and
Tomorrow is deadline for programming
Haven't finish -.-
Neeeeddddddddd mooooooreeeeeee ttttttimmmmmeeee
And this whatever we call it
Gay i think, everyday golden mile
So happy when Gay was in trouble
Of course no one wanted to help you
Cause you didn't even help anyone -.-
Actually, you got a solution with you
But why not used it ?
Cause its embarrassing ?
Hello, hello, the trouble you were in
Was much worse, so comparing both
Which will you choose ?
Embarrassment ?
Or in hot soup ?
Looks like you chose to be in hot soup
And why choose the heaviest resposibility of all
When you can't even handle the simplest -.-
So what if you're meeting your target
When you are actually using despicable methods
Like ? Cheating ? Or asking someone to do ? Lieing ?
Whatever, first 2 is still cheating
But i think you might think its alright
Successful in this and that, born with a silver spoon
Maybe money can help you solve everything
Regretted even helping you last time
GLHF
Wednesday 22 July 2009 Monday and Tuesday for this week is goooooood
First, I have met someone
Someone that i long to meet
She's my neightbour and yet i can't see her most of the time
Different school time ? Maybe ?
But monday, i manage to see her
Though its just a glance, but i am satisfied
And also, wonder how many instruments she plays
Piano, cello, still got anymore ?
Wee, seeing her made my day
Next is today, woo ~~
Though the starting sucks
Like i don't even know what the teacher teaching
And bla bla bla
But today's lab test wasn't that bad
2nd try and my circuit worked
Next is training, wah, run like siao
I almost stop, if stop need run extra 5 rounds
But i just recovered from fever
Can run 4km, means not bad ? LOL
And and and
Going home was a GREAT TIME
At mrt got seats, first time going home MRT got seats for me
Maybe it was the last train ?
Then saw seniors, got chio bu ~~~
Happy ride home
Saturday 18 July 2009 To me, friday is always the best day of the week
But not for today
Today is opposite, one of my worse days
As usual, went to school, had an E-Quiz
And scored 7/20, wtf -.-
Whatever, and continue doing my lab
Next was lab again, for electric circuit
Again, couldn't understand a shit
And did minimum
It the end, lecturer didn't count this lab
And taught us how to do, but i think
None of us still understand
After that jian drove, so me and imdad hitched a ride
Halfway through, me and jian decided to have lunch
While imdad went for his prayers
We had long john -.- i had sore throat
Went home around 1 plus
And i couldnt eat my medicine
Don't get it, for the past few years
I could swallow pills and tablets like nobody business
But this time, i actually spit it out
And damn, not the first time for this medication
And its actually antibiotics
In total, i already spitted 5 tablets out, -.-
And now, my nose is running tap water
I had to use countless tissue to clean clean clean
Blow blow blow, and i sneeze sneeze sneeze
Whats going on with my body
H1n1 attack ? But my fever is already down
To think of it, i went through this and that
To find a good antivirus for my laptop
Do this and that to prevent attacks of virus
In the end, is my own body antivirus down
Firewall down, and virus are invading
Now medicine are not going into me
I'm so sick of this shit, anyone got a medicine ?
That can heal me now ?
Labels: Health
Monday 13 July 2009 It has been a long time since i felt this way
Everytime my dad tries to teach me something
Studies or homework
I'll try my best to do myself without his help
As i don't like his nagging
However, if today, without his help
I would have never improve my programming project
Though the project is not done
But it had alot of changes to the previous one
And i'm happy about it
However, it wasn't easy for my father to teach me
First of all, he doesn't even have a clue about programming
Maybe he knows alot about EXCEL
Which somehow, had some relation to computer language
At first, he tried his best to understand from what i was doing
Soon after, he asked for my textbook
He started to read, page by page, detail by detail
And after like 3 - 4 hours
He could gave me suggestions, suggestions that made my project work
And simplied many complicated commands i did
Soon after, it was 1am
And he had to work the next day
So, he told me to try myself and said we could improve the project tomorrow
Despite being tired from work, my dad still helps me in anyway he can
Giving suggestions, talking about his past
Like how he get up after numerous falls
Though the end of the day
I still don't like his nagging
But i'll still drag my lazy body
And grap my maths textbook
Flip it open, and start doing questions
THANKS DAD, FOR THE HELP YOU GAVE ME
Sunday 5 July 2009 Went for CCA this morning
Good weather, wasn't that sunny
But i wanted it to be, cause i want to tan myself
Had 3 hours of rowing, had to say it was tough
My strength could only tahan like 50m ? Or more ?
Then i'm down, can only row
Can't row with more energy
And we did 50 pull ups
Wow, that was great, do and stop
Do and stop, each stop will have to do
30 push up, think i did 100 over to complete
Was pretty tired
Then went home, had some daytona games
Can say was quite unlucky
Screw up a few rounds
And only 1 round perfect
After that, went to buy lunch and went home to eat
Teryaki Chicken, YUM YUM
Tomorrow is common test
Got to study -.-
And oh yea
Don't come tell me what i afk never play
What people train me all these shit
What afk can leech exp
You think what, tell you don't play is something bad ?
Your test and exams are coming
Yet still don't want study
Whatever lah, i don't care already
Go play your games and do whatever you want
Thursday 2 July 2009 Its has been some time since i update
Went to study today
Can say i did learn alot
Many programming methods have finally been cleared
But there is still too many doubts i have
And, common test are coming
SUCKS
This not sure, that don't know
Can really die
From secondary school of 6 subjects
To poly of 3 modules that are tested
Yet i still can't cope
Wonder why ?
Too dumb ? Too slack ?
Not sure, have been chionging this 2 weeks
Clearing as much e learning homework and revision
However, there are still doubts over here and there
Holes here and there, still waiting to be covered by understandings
At school today
Met up with imdad and went to do programming
Lets just say it was a great session
Where we could finish up our e learning assignment
The template could also be of much help in future
After finishing, we went to eat
Talking about food, TP's food is so much better than NYP's
I should have at all cost, enter TP
But now, its already fixed, NYP for 3 years of education
Not saying NYP is bad or whatsoever
Just saying that TP might be a better choice
Many friends are there
Easier transportation
And many things to consider
And to all my friends
Good luck for your common test and O levels
Hope you guys can score well
And get to a place you want to be
Monday 29 June 2009 This quiz is taken from Kelvin Loh.
All of the 14 people must do this quiz.
Write the name of the 14 people you can think off the top of your head.
Then answer the question. (Not in specific order)
1. Kelvin Ng
2. Wei Xi
3. Kang Hui
4. Gwen
5. Sock Teng
6. Kai Li
7. Angela
8. Li Qi
9. Hui Miao
10. Yvonne Seah
11. Pei Ming
12. Jian En
13. Jovin
14. Felicia
1. How did you get to meet 7 ? [ Angela ]
: We were secondary school mates.
2. What would you do if you & 13 never meet ? [ Jovin ]
: Nothing ?
3. What would you do if 1 & 12 date ? [ Kelvin and Jian En ]
: That will never happen. 1 is attached, the other is a monk. LOL
4. Have you ever seen 14 cry before ? [ Felicia ]
: Nope
5. Would 4 & 11 be a good couple ? [ Gwen and Pei Ming ]
: They will never be couple.
6. Do you think 11 is attractive ? [ Pei Ming ]
: Er .... Yes ?
7. What's 2's favourite colour ? [ Wei Xi ]
: Erm, don't know ...
8. When was the last time you talk to 9 ? [ Hui Miao ]
: Morning, on msn.
9. What language does 8 speak ? [ Li Qi ]
: English and Chinese I guess, or maybe more ?
10. Who is 13 going out with ? [ Jovin ]
: Er, with his brother ?
11. What grade is 12 in ? [ Jian En ]
: Poly, Year 1
12. Have you ever kissed 5 ? [ Sock Teng ]
: Nope, never kissed anyone before.
13. What was the best memories you have with 7 ? [ Angela ]
: When we were having chalet.
14. When's the last time you're going to see 6 ? [ Kai Li ]
: When we were going to go out for a study session.
15. How is 14 & 12 different ? [ Felicia and Jian En ]
: 1 is girl, another is guy ?
16. Is 6 pretty ? [ Kai Li ]
: Yep, of course.
17. What was the first impression of 11 ? [ Pei Ming ]
: Born leader ?
18. How did you meet 5 ? [ Sock Teng ]
: Secondary school classmate..
19. Is 1 your best friend ? [ Kelvin ]
: Can say lah, we know each other for more than 4 years.
20. Do you hate 12 ? [ Jian En ]
: Nope, he's one of my good friends.
21. Have you seen 4 on the last month ? [ Gwen ]
: Nope.
22. When was the last time you said to 3 ? [ Kang Hui ]
: Yesterday, on msn. If i'm not wrong.
23. Have you been to 5's house ? [ Sock Teng ]
: Yep, a few times.
24. When's the next time your gonna see 10 ? [ Yvonne ]
: Er, not sure, next week in school ?
25. Are you close to 13 ? [ Jovin ]
: Yep, kind of.
26. Have you been to a movie with 4 before ? [ Gwen ]
: Yeah, once.
27. Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8 ? [ Li Qi ]
: That will never happen.
28. Would you give 2 a hug ? [ Wei Xi ]
: Why not ?
29. When have you lied to 3 ? [ Kang Hui ]
: Most probably not.
30. Is 1 good with socializing ? [ Kelvin ]
: Of course, he's one of the best i know.
Thursday 25 June 2009 Hi guys, long time since i update
Common test postpone
Thats good news, meaning i have another week
And guess what, i uninstall almost all my games
WC3, CS, and many more
Kept only like 1 simple 1
So guys, if anyone thought of asking me for match
Sorry to say, find someone else
Or maybe no one would even called me for a match
Too noob already
Cannot make it
Thats also part of the reason why i quitted
Why let people suan me all the time
When i can actually stop it
I now only play games that i am good at
But sad to say, they can be counted by fingers
Think the best game i'm at is only Daytona
Nothing else
Gonna put the time back to studies
I do wish to enter a university
And do programming for my next half of my life
Or even start a buisness with my friend or something
But my brother will always say
"What great amibition you have"
Ya right, think only mah, think is 1 thing, do is another
Right, hmm, i need my bike back soon
But not sure when are my friends returning -.-
Learning how to play -New Divide- on piano
Quite easy actually for a simple tune
But didn't find any advanced score
Ok then, still have CCA later
Going to chiong all the way even if i have any injury
And good luck seniors for the competition
I am looking forward to see you guys
Cross the finishing line
NYP FTW
Thursday 11 June 2009 YES, i got time to update blog
Wow, CCA 4x a week, gonna be so tired
But its fun, row row row row row
Didn't really go read blogs this week
And after reading
Realised certain things
Like a picture doesn't really tell a thousand words at times
Found out that i do prefer reading words
To seeing pictures
To me, words can express feelings straight
Rather than pictures
However, after a long post of words
Adding in a few meaningful pictures is good as well
And to LEONG
The world is damn unfair man
Somemore i saw 2 cases la
Damn, how i wish the world could be more fair, or fairer
Whichever, lol
And CCAs are very active man
Almost burning up all my holidays
But its ok
Making new friends
Knowing new people, new skills
Even going through things together
Right, nothing else
Also nothing much i want to blog
CYA
Sunday 31 May 2009 Woke up at 12pm
As per normal for weekends
Sleep as much as i want
Cause week days is sleep late
Wake up early
Stressed !!
No choice, who ask me study so far
Good thing too
Next time go to work won't snooze that much
Right, after lunch
Went to see doctor
And my swollen toe
Was caused by toe nails
My toe nail grow into my flesh
Damn, worse come to worse
A surgery will be needed
To pull the whole nail out
But luckily, the doctor said it wasn't that bad
Eat medicine and apply cream
When the swell is over
Can pull part of the nail up and cut it away
Damn, i can't workout too much with that wound
And its infected
Which also is bad, suck balls la
After visiting the clinic
When to meet my 4e3 classmates, woohoo
Studied together
Did a number of maths questions
Felt bored, change to electric circuits
And tried to understand them
Then had dinner
Wow, each person $10 is quite al ot for me
But........ The food was great
Had funny talks when eating
After that kai li and sock teng got to go
Aww man, wish they could stay longer
Not like we can always see each other
And my poly and their poly
Need 1 hour plus transport time to be there
Then headed to gwen's house
Watched some youtube videos
And it was already 10 going 11
Fetched Kang Hui home
And weixi headed to his movies
And then i went home
And guess what
I fixed my comp, woohoo
Now reinstalling everything
Sian, so many updates and bla bla bla to do
And i hit my injured toe again
Sucks, ok, gtg, cya
Wednesday 27 May 2009 Right, laptop spoiled
Don't feel like doing anything about it
And almost no mood in anything
Let's just shorten up what i've done for this week
Went out with secondary school mates
Had great fun and watched movie
My recent sayings made 7 people thought it was them
Had to explain 1 by 1 to them that it wasn't them
But the person i hope he or she sees it
Just doesn't sees it
Even had to tell the truth to one of my friends
Didn't use internet for self recreational for a long time
About 2 weeks ?
Then i surf through the net and decided to customize a laptop
Just for the fun of it
Build a great laptop
Worth about 10k SGD, WOW
Not the best yet, but just for the fun of it
Even build 1 about 16k SGD
How i wish i could just own 1 of it
And i can just game whole day long
To think about it
My laptop broke down do have some good things
Like i don't game anymore after my laptop spoiled
I can spend more time on something more useful
Other than games
I even studied for my maths test
WOW, can't imagine i'm doing it
Right, still have a test tomorrow
Got to go guys
CYA
Wednesday 20 May 2009 Oh great, laptop is officially dead in the inside
Reformat it, now i don't even know wtf is it
No choice, only have to use my family desktop to update
Wasn't really a good start for my laptop to be dead
And didn't really have a good weekend
Had lectures, tutorials and bla bla bla
Realise somethings though
Know this person for quite sometime i can say
Base of the time we spent together
Lets call the person Sam
So it can be either samantha or just sam
From my point of view, sam is pretty rude
Talks back to elders, and many more i can say
Really want to tell sam to stop
But lets just say we 2 are not that close
Whenever someone says something
Sam will want to contradict the person
Also, not saying is sam's fault
Sam does talk very loudly
Affecting many people around
Sometimes me as well
Lets say all these can be change
Right, nothing else, see ya then
Sunday 17 May 2009 Jeez, didn't have time to update recently
Assignments and projects are crushing me
And last week my project is hand up
Now left 2 more assignment left to do
MATHS, AND CIRCUIT BOARD
Maths is alright, but circuit board isn't
Gonna take me a long time to fix this and that
Recently got screwed
My thumb drive for some reason couldn't be open
And my system keep prompting me to reformat it
No choice, format it and lost my stuff
Great, then now my module programme can't work
Due to compatibility problem
Damn, but currently trying to solve it
Hope it works
And guess what ? I AM BE A LECTURER
AN ELECTRIC CIRCUIT LECTURER
WHY ? CAUSE OUR LECTURER ONLY READS FROM THE NOTES
AND NOTHING ELSE OTHER THAN HELLO HELLO
Right, best is still MR NG's lesson
Teaches us programming
Always looking forward to mondays
As he only teaches us on mondays
Wednesday 13 May 2009 Today is YAM DAY
Woohoo, everything we do got to be related to yam
Like food and drinks, all yam
So, we all bought yam drinks
Yam ice blend, Yam yogurt drink
Still not very sure why today in yam day though ...
Saturday 9 May 2009 Woke up at 12, was supposed to meet my cousin
Right, was late, so decided to meet her somewhere else then
At pasir ris mrt station
Then proceeded to Ehub, and ...........
ARCADE, woo ~~~ long time since i was there
Played a few rounds, and know she was bored
So we went for lunch, both of us ate Japanese food
Then had deserts and proceed for a move
STAR TREK
Wasn't that bad
After the movie, she had nothing to do
And i had to go kang's house
But she's my cousin after all
Couldn't just throw her there alone
Then she decided to meet her boyfriend
At 7pm outside wild wild wet
Great, i waited with her
And he appeared, decided not to play gooseberry
So i left
Took mrt home and something happen -_-
There was this woman sitting at the priority seat
And i wasn't
Then another woman came in with the baby couch
And she stood in front of me
I was expecting the woman at the priority seat to give up hers
Instead, another woman sitting the opposite me
Signaled me to give up mine
I was already aching all over
Arghh, no choice
Don't want to me on newspaper
So i just gave up mine
And alighted at simei
What a great day indeed
And i went home, ask my mum if can stay over at kang's house
GREAT, usual reply, NO
No choice, only can msn him to help me with school work
Thanks anyway kang
And today is sure a GREAT DAY
Friday 8 May 2009 Had 4 hours of lesson today
Wasn't that bad for PCB board design
The other electronic circuit lab
Was pretty bad, couldn't do much
Then school ended at 12pm, woohoo ~~
Wanted go to have a look at esss speech day
Sadly, i was denied access
Oh great, i must have missed lots of events
Last time seeing my juniors for speech day
Last time seeing friends participating in other things
Last time i could have see someone dance
Damn it, how i wish i could have got in through any reasons
Apparently i failed big time
Right, took 3 pictures in class
Thursday 7 May 2009 Went for dragon boat, wasn't that bad
Today was early release, ended at 8pm
That bryan, really know when to joke man
Was already so tiring and trying to maintain my position
He shouted " Go home i watch porn"
Upon hearing that, i laughed and lost control of my position
Can't slack, faster regain my position and continue with the training
Then during one of the exercise to lift both legs 45 degree
He was in bicycle leg position and i didn't know it
One of the seniors walk to him and said, you riding bicycle ah ?
Once again, i laughed and lost control
I quickly regain my position and bryan said, you got more training i don't have leh
And once again, i laughed
And many more same incident
Must bring tape to tape him mouth next time
Overall training wasn't that bad
Tuesday 5 May 2009 Went for cca today, dragon boat
Wasn't that bad
First day training was pretty ok
But after seeing the gym training
Wow, its so hard lah
Maybe to others its ok
But to a skinny guy like me
It will be quite a challenge
But its ok
TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN
And NS won't be a problem
But, its from 6pm to 9.30 plus
Didn't expect to be that long
Even wanted to meet Kang for dinner actually
Looks like my tuesdays and thursdays are gone
Sunday 3 May 2009 C'mon, don't tell me my post is creating some hatred again
I am just blogging my thoughts
No offense, please don't feel guilty
Or whatsoever, but i am not going to remove my post
I am always wondering
Why does other people talk to me or call me
When they need help or something
Or not like you will be in their msn for live
And they will only chat with you once in awhile
And then asking you to help them
What can i say
So far, i've been facing this "problem" many times
Like people only talk to me
When either i know something that can help them
Or i did something that adversely affected them
Is my life really that bad
And my existence is just a tool for someone else life ?
Always wondering that when i'm free
People will then start telling me
I can always start a conversation first
While ....... I tried, and many times
And it failed terribly, like the conversation only goes on
For like less than 20 secs
Or worse still, the other party won't even reply
Looks like i am very unpopular among people who know me
Thursday 30 April 2009 GREAT, bought a new external hard disk
And friend said reformatting will make it better
So i did, and i ask him what about the files for the hard drive
He replied that he didn't even format before
I was like wtf, i immediately stop the formatting and it was too late
The hard disk can't be used after the format has completed
So now i am formatting it, will take damn long
Lets just hope it doesn't spoil
Damn pissed of now
But never mind i trust him, hope what he said will turn out good
Saturday 25 April 2009 Right, this post do have some photos
So here it is, its my birthday
And i intended to make a record by myself
But i just can't do it
Never mind, will try out next time
Friends wish me happy birthday, though some are late
But still appreciate it
Dad and Mum bought me a small cake
Even though i said it will waste time
By singing song, cutting cake, take pictures and bla bla bla
And it wasted me 1 hour -_-
And happy birthday xinyu, same date as me
Then happy birthday Hui Cheng, my classmate, the next day
And happy birthday Siang Jin
Saturday 18 April 2009 Deleted a post
So it doesn't create any misunderstanding or whatsoever
Monday 6 April 2009 Yes, my neighbour is a the chio bu that i saw
But sometimes she wear specs
Look a little nerd nerd
Ok, thats all folks will blog soon
Sunday 5 April 2009 YES, I AM A TANKER, GONNA TANK ANYTHING COMING IN MY WAY
Friday 3 April 2009 Right, it has been sometime since i update
Got my testimonial and guess what, the comments page was bad
It less than half a page, damn, what can i say
We broke 2 ROWS OF GLASSES
Its actually 2 panels
But it was exaggerated by our DM
Ok, enough of bad stuff
However, good stuffs aren't that much for me
But but but, there is still one
Not sure its true or not
My neighbour, she is pretty, but now, think she changed
From pretty to chio bu
But the person i saw might not be her
Cause it totally doesn't resemble her at all
I only had a glimpse of her, so can't say much
AND WOW
Someone smiled to me at esss, will never forget that cheerful look on her face
Right, going for interview at IP ZONE tomorrow
Lets hope i get in
Saturday 28 March 2009 Chalet was fun
Weird things happen though
And i didn't take any pictures
So can't show much
Try reading Kaili's or Angela's or Gwen's blog
Or those who went to the chalet and have a blog
Like Wei Xi or Kelvin, can't remember still got who liao
Tuesday 24 March 2009 I can't view blogs, including my own
Saying its some request for virus information
Scan my computer and there's nothing
Saturday 21 March 2009 its 3.12am now and i am being guai lan by yvonne
More like chit chatting
Ok back to being guai lan by her, bye bye
Went to the arcade with friends
Played for about 2 hours
Not bad liao, last time was double the time
But ....... today wasn't so bad
We had 2 games with chio bu(s) today
Hmm, same as us, a group of 3
But only 1 chio, and they kept playing advance
Which they are not really that good at
Wanted to let them win, but there was this idiot
ORANGE, he took the orange car
And he was screwing me the whole game
He is like some primary school kid lah
And doesn't he know that he can't win me
So i got no choice, but to go for the finishing line
Cause i can't let my own record be broken
Anyway, how i wish i can play daytona with those chio bu(s) again
Hope to see them again at ehub
Nothing else then, its late, cya
Thursday 19 March 2009 http://fortresssurvivalguide.blogspot.com/
Hello people, this is my own guide to winning fortress survival
Only those who play this game will understand
For any questions, you can tag at my blog too
Will soon add a tagboard to that guide as well
Monday 16 March 2009 So many people bought new laptops
Rich people...
How i wish i can get a laptop too
Not because mine is outdated
In fact mine is still pretty good
Let me ask, who has upgraded their ram, processor, and the vista package
I did, so i think mine will still be able to be with the updates and all
Currently not playing any account games
As you will need to spend time in it
However, helping a friend
Shall not reveal his IRL name, game name and account name
Privacy i guess
But its assured that i will only spend part of my free time doing it
So my addiction will not be revived
Saturday 14 March 2009 Yay, i am offically perma ban from runescape
Not really perma ban, my account is perma ban
Great, its ok actually, i don't really give a shit about it
READ THIS FAGEX
IF AM GONNA SUCCEED 1 DAY
I WILL USE PAYPAL WITH VERIFIED CC
AND APPLY 100 ACOUNTS FOR MEMBERS
AND RETRACT MY PAYMENT
LETS SEE WHOS GONNA DIE THEN
LOL, ok, i am serious about that
They kept saying how macroers, credit card fraud and real world trading affect them
But to me, i feel that its alright
C'mon, do more fraud for runescape
I will live to the day to see the close of runescape
People will say i am doing this for revenge
Maybe ? I have even heard of people committing suicide
Just for this stupid game, seriously
OK, LETS NOT TALK ABOUT RUNESCAPE
How i wish i was half as good as my younger brother
Only the good parts though
The bad parts, hmm lets just say he is too kind and doesn't want to hurt people
He's clever, he's popular, (maybe not that much, cause i am not in tms)
All his good points are just too good
What about me, I don't really find any good points for myself
People hate me, i have a screwed up life
And i have crazy goals, which people tell me to stop dreaming
Arghh, screw this shit
And i think i am suffering from insomnia
Really need to do something about it
And why are my text so wierd ?
Thursday 12 March 2009 I was saying that i couldn't get to sleep
So i decided to tire myself so that i can get some rest
And i really made a wrong choice .... SWIMMING
Great, now my coloured hair change colour
Think some other people might think something is wrong with me
Arghh, no choice, got to wear a cap every now and then
And what now, i've got a perma ban in runescape, FFS
Geez, lets hope my final appeal succeeds
Already thought of what i will do if it fails
Suicide ? No way, who's dumb enough to die
Just for a game
If the appeal fails, i will go find a job to do
Something that fits my interest ? or is interesting to do
And will work hard trying to get GPA of more than 3
Then i will be eligible for a University in Singapore
Already let my family down again and again
Will work harder and if i succeed in life
I am so gonna spent money on computer
And create more accounts to break more rules in Runescape
LOL
P/S: Happy Birthday Von
Wednesday 11 March 2009 I went for a swim and just came back
Trying to tire myself so that i can get a good rest
But apparently, i do feel the closing of eye lids and other symptoms of tireness
But my mind just don't seem to be into it
My mind isn't telling me to rest
But, nothing much i can do
Either i use the remedy of textbooks or i take sleeping pills
So now i will just try to get some rest and we'll see
See what happen next
After O levels, i began massive gaming too much
Something i kind of wrong with me
I know that i didn't sleep much
But i just can't get to sleep
Tossing around in bed for hours before feeling tired
And finally sleeping
I can sleep at 5am and wake up at 7am
And can't going back to sleep anymore
Like now, I can't sleep, so i decided to use the computer
I first thought i was addicted or somehow
So i cut short my gaming time like about half
No more arcades, movies, just stay at home
Not much of runescape now, or you guys will see more 99s
For now, i will try to go back to sleep
Or i'll use the remedy that always work
Take a textbook and start reading
IF THAT DOESN'T WORK, I AM IN SERIOUS SHIT
Tuesday 3 March 2009 In the game, this clockwork was killing, but didn't use any skills to save us when we're dying, in the end i found out why after i watch the replay ...
Sunday 1 March 2009 Thought of giving you something
But couldn't think of what
So i bought a donut and place a candle on it
Like i give you cake like that
Will give you an edible one when i see you next time
Friday 20 February 2009 Whatever that is happening
Making me can't update
Whenever i click new post, it will just hang there
And i can't update
Anyways, i have been at home all this while
No job, No going outs, maybe a few hours at the cinema
Nothing else, but i find it ok
Ok as in not that bored
Life is standard for 2 months
Wake up, play comp, watch tv, meals, sleep
And it happen for 2 months
The electricity bills went up -,-
No outings = no pictures to upload
I know many people prefer looking at picture blogs rather than words
Schools gonna start in another 2 months time
Hope i have no esss people in the same course
Wanted to have everything anew again
Going to work hard for my poly life and aim for university
Can't afford to let my parents down again and again
Most of my cousin's graduated with a degree
So i can't be lagging behind
But ...... I already disappointed my whole family by getting a 26
Which sucks, wanted to enter a JC
Sigh, how naive of me, 26 going to a JC
What a joke, sooooooooooo, forget it
Just make use of what i have now, which is like nothing
Nothing else more about my boring life
P/S: No interested in anything, like what i always say now, WHATEVER
Friday 6 February 2009 Ages since i update
Have anyone met up with someone
Someone that has ups and downs but all end up well
So ya, watched this show on tv that already has 500 ++ episodes
Love the story mode
Its like this
Boy 1 like Girl 1
Girl 2 like Boy 1
This Girl 1 used to have a loving relationship with a rich man
However, although the rich man's father denies their relationship
The rich man decides to go against his father wishes and married her
Then something bad happen
The father hired an assassin to take Girl 1 out
Luckily, she did not died and eventually recovered
Girl 1 know that if their relationship continues
She will be hurt more in future, therefore break off with the rich man
At this moment, Boy 1 has already give up on Girl 1
And also started to woo Girl 2
But during the accident, Girl 1 needed blood transfer and Boy 1 offered to
This incident cause Girl 2 to be worried of losing Boy 1
From all these, how i wish i was Boy 1, where there is a girl who likes me
But will be troubled as Girl 1 is single again
In reality, no one wish to be lying in the hospital and suffering
So for this coming valentines
I wish all couples to be long lasting and whatever wishes that are for couples
